Well it's been nearly a year since I blogged...

As you can see I'm not a very good blogger, its not that I don't have lots to say to you or that I don't want to do it. It's just, in all honesty, I'm quite a quiet person. I have lots of introspective qualities and I guess with my job and having a one year old most of my days are spent exploring my extravert side. So often when I do get time on my own, I tend to sit with my thoughts & not do much except observe them. Enjoying a bit of quiet and silence to sit with how I might be feeling. So if you do like to read blogs, I'm sorry I go away for long periods, I will try to do better.

What's been on my mind lately is a few things, firstly how precious our time together is. I often think about leaving Bedford again and going to live by the sea, maybe abroad, maybe in the UK. But what stops me is my friends and family, I have such a wonderful network of what i think of as all being my family. If I was to leave to explore a new place to live, I'd be leaving what is my home but most importantly my family. We all to often take for granted those quick chats over coffee, a friend to swim with, a catch up at yoga, a walk with the babes, and I think right now I can't leave that wonderful family......But maybe we'll return to those thoughts another day.

Secondly, doubtfulness as been a king pin in my chitta vrtti lately. I'll swing away from it, but it will be another branch that my monkey mind grasps for once more. It's a silly thing we do to ourselves, doubt our ideas, our abilities, our choices. We have all taken our paths because this is where we are meant to be! Yes? So why do we think, am I good at this? does this person like me?Should I try something different? Do I think the same as that person? Should I be feeling this? Why? SOOOOOOO HUMMMMMMMM. This is me, I am that. Trust your thoughts, trust in who you are, and most importantly be true to yourself. Self doubt, judgement and criticisms can DO ONE. I am choosing to let this go...off you go. No longer will I question the things I trust within me. 

In letting that second little tree branch go I have found space for something better, happiness. Happiness in where I am and what I am doing and with who I have in my life. This is not always an easy feat, to be happy with how our lives are unfolding, especially if all the shit seems to be coming your way. So all you can do is keep trying, keep getting on your mat, keep doing your thing, keep your head high and your heart open and always let those friends and family in for some more love, you can never get enough of that oxytocin!!

So peace my Yomies, and so much love. Mwah xxx

 

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Last day of my 32nd Year!

Can't believe I'm going to be 32 tomorrow?! When did that happen. I'm still lucky enough to be friends with my school friends after 17+ years, so I think in our minds we look the same & we definitely act the same. Still climbing through windows if dared, laughing uncontrollably at each other's (probably unfunny) jokes, loving each other like only girlfriends can!

Anyhow....I realised yesterday that when I told myself I wasn't doing the nutrition side of my training just yet. i.e eating cake as and when I wanted, I went the other way and ate more cake! So after this weekend (it is my birthday) I'll try to cut back on the sweeter things. I totally blame the cold that my son has for this, cold=more wake time in the night=tired Mummy=eat sweet things. So as he improves I'm sure my diet will too.

2 weeks into back to work life & I'm getting into the swing of things. I admit it threw me at first, but now I feel Zak can cope without me (or mainly by breasts) for longer I can teach without worry (or too much anyway) Classes have been busy & the energy has been so positive...what a job I have!

My training yesterday was a killer...for some reason Jack reckons you have to put up the weights to see improvement?!

3 generations in the gym...

My mum, me & Zachary

My mum, me & Zachary

Peace & love yogis 🙏 

'Don't worry, Be happy'

'Don't worry, Be happy'

Rosanna's training to feel 'refreshed'...erm not sure I'm feeling that refreshed yet, but feeling a bit more reenergised. However, that could be the apple & blueberry cake I just had...oops.

      So one week into the 'transformation' and I've eaten more cake this weekend than in the last 11 months 🙈... oops. Well it was my sisters hen do. Great weekend away in the Cotswolds.  I think perhaps transformation is the wrong word...maybe we should call it 're-energising' or 'returning' or 'revitalising'? As I'm not looking to 'transform' my body or myself, I am looking to get myself feeling strong, energised & healthy whilst breast feeding & looking after my baby.   So back to it this week, the cake isn't completely off the table now...just at the weekends. And the coffee is definitely not off the table...just down to one a day.       

  
     
    
       
        
           
                
           
        

        

       
    
     
  


     I already feel stronger from getting back to my yoga practice, with such a warm welcome back to it last week...all classes were busy & full of such smiley yogis. I loved it! This week we will focus on opening those emotional hips and letting go, stimulating the muladhara & svadisthana chakras.  Training with Jack is going well, my PT holds my baby whilst I work out! Perfect.   Feeling strong & looking forward to another week of yoga, training & most importantly being a mum.   See you in class soon. 

So one week into the 'transformation' and I've eaten more cake this weekend than in the last 11 months 🙈... oops. Well it was my sisters hen do. Great weekend away in the Cotswolds.